October 15 2013, Today I found out that my friends aren’t really my ‘friends’. When one of them called me to give back his notebook from all way to some café I saw him smoking hookah with his real friends. That’s when I realized that piece of shit was never my friend and only took my presence for granted. Unfortunately for me that’s not the first time , Since I was 12 I tried in vain to have friends but now that I am 18 what’s the use of trying now ?. It’s over. I am done wasting my life in search for friendship to chase happiness, I can find happiness by myself all alone anyways. I don’t think I might ever be able to have friends and I guess I am destined to be all alone. If that’s the case then I got no problem with it, I have no problem in embracing myself as a loner.
However being a loner isn’t bad at all !!! Now that I am 18 and only three years left for me to go off to USA , I am ready to face the world all alone with no support. Friends are nothing but distraction and being alone makes me focus more on my studies(especially programming, which gonna help me big time in my upcoming future career as a game designer) and become more mature. I could also easily travel anywhere around the world and explore it alone . But since I am gonna be going to united states after three years for my master’s degree, I might finally meet a real friend I guess.
October 9 2013, Today I skipped four of my college classes ; English, chemistry and engineering mechanics to go to cuppa house and smoke some ‘hookah’ cuz I was just kinda curious what it felt like. And now I do. It feels very nauseating and it gave me a very big headache & dizzy feeling. My friends were able to smoke hookah for more than four hours but I couldn’t even stand to smoke for even two minutes. After a half an hour, another friend of mine shows up and then other two acquaintances from my college show up and that’s when we all six sat down and started talking about various things we all guys talk about; girls, dirty jokes and then me, two of my college friends & another guy( who’s my friend’s school friend) started smoking hookah again and that’s when I became so dizzy that I fell asleep on the table for a minimum of 45-54 minutes I guess :/.
Anyways, as I was partially asleep my friends started chatting about various topics and after I woke up to find out that it’s raining heavily outside. When the rain cooled down a little bit we decided to go home & left our own separate ways.
The lesson I learned from this experience ? Never skip classes and smoke hookah cuz it’s really messes up your mind easily. But I got no choice, I only smoke it to blend in with others.
28 September 2013, Today was the orientation day in my engineering college for all the freshman year students which also includes me. When I arrived to the auditorium hall(where it’s being held) I spotted three of my junior college’s classmates. I dunno about the rest of the two but the other one chose civil and will be pursuing a bachelor’s degree in civil engineering. As for me I am gonna be pursuing a bachelor’s degree in Information Technology. Anyways, for half an hour all those board members and deans of the courses like mechanical, computer science lectured about the importance of youth and anti-bullying thingy blah blah blah and that’s when I started to get really bored so I decided to pass my time playing subway surf on my cellphone. After the lecture they showed us our classes and I got surprised to find one of my junior classmates as a classmate AGAIN ! lol but I guess that’s cool. During that the dean of IT told us about bullying and other bullcrap stuff again and then some seniors showed up apparently they also happen to be club members. They told us we could could other extra curricular activities like these clubs and now I gotta go pick one club ! – Robotics club or computer club? Both are good though ! But I chose to go for computer club for my own personal reasons( I am gonna tell u about them in the future). Although I didn’t really have a good time because of ‘ the woman whom I refuse to call my mother’ cuz she kept irritating me and wanted to leave. All that time I was thinking why the fuck did she come with me ? I could have gone alone without that bitch. And plus she made me hate her even more when she said I would have my visa rejected from US, haha that’s real funny bitch cuz I always get what I want and I will get visa approved by united states & get the hell away from you and start a new life over there. But first thing’s first, What are GRE test and TOEFL test ? U guys know about these test then please comment. Ok bye…
September 23 2013,
I am gonna be honest. I truly loved the finale episode of DEXTER but mostly because of Debra Morgan’s death and Dexter finally understanding that everybody close to him dies around him. I’ve noticed that many of the fans did not like the ending mostly because dexter got away with all his crimes but I don’t watch DEXTER because that. I watch it because I like the character’s journey and how he ultimately got a very sad and dark ending. If others think the ending is crappy then guess what ? F**K THEM !!! Anyways here’s my review on Dexter Season 8 Episode 12 – ‘Remember The Monsters ?’
The episode starts off with dexter and harrison arriving at the airport and dexter then gets a phone call from Hannah mckay saying that elway is in the airport & she is hiding in the women’s toilet. Dexter spots elway trying to call deputy clayton( who got killed by saxon in the previous episode ), Seeing this dexter picks up some bag and puts in some stuff and a water bottle in it and then he tells to the air hostess that elway put some kinda weird bag over there on purpose. This causes the airport security to take away elway with them however in the process dexter and hannah’s flights are delayed too. While outside the airport dexter gets a call from batista saying debra has been shot. After that dexter immediately goes to the hospital to see debra. I also really liked the conversation between debra and quinn about her being a good enough in this world but Quinn dismisses those facts and tells her that she is a good person and once she’s back on the force she will be saving a lot of people even a load of nuns lol. And in the hospital before she’s carried away she tells joey for one last time that she loves him.
Later on we see Saxon( The Main Antagonist of the Final Season) walking towards a tow truck while he bleeds from his arm and quickly knocks out the tow truck’s driver and steals the vehicle. Meanwhile, Dexter arrives to the hospital and is informed by batista that she is still in surgery and matthews comforts dexter by saying ‘debra will survive as she is strong just like harry’. Debra eventually awakes and finds dexter beside her bed, they both talk about ‘why aren’t you in argentina?’ to ‘why we never went to hiking’ then Dexter blames himself for ruining her life but debra reassures him no to blame himself because she is responsible for the consequences of her life. Then a doctor shows up to check debra’s gunshot wound in the abdomen. When debra tells him if hannah boarded a flight to argentina, he tells her she didn’t which causes debra to blame herself for ruining dexter’s life. However, This time dexter tells her that it’s not at all her fault. He tells her that he is gonna send harrison with hannah to board a flight while he’ll stay behind to deal with Oliver Saxon. Debra then tells him that he should go and deal with saxon after telling him she’s fine and that she wants him to say her ‘Goodbye’ or else she will crawl out of her bed kick him lol. Dexter smiles and says her GOODBYE. After that dexter gets a flashback of harrison being born and how excited debra was to see her little nephew. When dexter started to think he would be an awkward parent, debra tells him that he’ll be a great parent because he always looked after her and reminding him about the incident of the ‘monsters’. While on the way to leave the hospital, Elway confronts dexter about him and hannah mckay but dexter roughly slams him against the wall and tells him to stay away, In respond elway tells him ‘Don’t go down with her Dexter’.
The scene then cuts to Saxon going inside a vet store and threatening the vet at gunpoint to stich up his gunshot wound on the arms. After he stitches up his wound saxon takes the vet hostage and tells him to drive to the hospital where debra is treate( After watching news of her location). When they arrive at the hospital Saxon cut off the vet’s tongue in order to create a distraction. After entering the hospital successfully he tries to find debra’s room but he sees dexter armed with a fork. However, Before any of them could make a move batista shows up and has saxon arrested by officers. After that dexter goes to see deb but her room is empty. Dexter then learns from a tearful quinn that debra suffered a severe stroke during the surgery and is most likely to live in a vegetative state but the doctors and quinn hope for a miracle but dexter clearly is distraught about the news. Because of that dexter goes to the police station by pretending to take a GSR test from Saxon, He sits down with saxon and talks about how saxon helped him to see who he really was and when saxon tells him that is that the reason he came here to see him, Dexter then keeps a pen beside him and tells saxon that he came here to kill him with that pen. Frustated, Saxon grabs the pen and quickly stabs dexter in the shoulder but dexter takes out, Grabs Saxon and stabs him in the neck, promptly killing Saxon as he bleeds to death.
Later, Quinn and Batista see the security footage of dexter killing saxon and are visibly shocked. However, Due to the fact that they cared about debra too and that saxon was a total monster they accept dexter’s claim that it was self defense, especially quinn who remarks that he wished he was the one who killed saxon.
After killing Saxon, Dexter realises that all his life he wanted to have a normal life and feelings like others. But now that he does he regrets it. Then he drives to the hospital on his boat and goes to debra’s room.
Upon seeing debra in her comatose state dexter becomes emotional and begins to cry & tells debra that he is sorry and that he would do everything to change things for her. After that dexter shuts down her life support and removes the tubes and patches. As Debra slowly dies painlessly, dexter( now emotionally devastated ) leans forward to her and says ‘I love you’ to her one final time right before Debra finally dies. After that dexter takes debra’s body on his boat and dumps her in the ocean in the same spot where he dumped his fellow victims, thus in order for Debra to rest in peace. Now Dexter having become entirely human because of debra’s demise decides to save harrison and hannah from himself and afte calling harrison & hannah for one last time he drives his boat into a hurricane. After the hurricane ended, Everything in miami goes back to normal. However, Coastguards find the pieces of a boat with the name on one of them written as ‘The SLICE’( So i guess they found dexter’s boat). Then the scene shfits to angel recieving a call about Dexter’s death and is clearly shocked after learning about it and Hannah & harrison are now in argentina(possibly) and hannah sees news on her laptop that dexter has died. She sheds a tear and then she & harrison go for an ice cream. Then the final scene cuts to a lumberjack getting off his truck and guess what ? The Lumberjack is DEXTER !!! He then goes inside his home and quietly sits on chair and as the cameras zooms up to him, Dexter shows his ‘signature stare’ to the camera and then screen fades to black.
So this it it guys ! Dexter has officially ended forever !!!! I have to admit the ending was absolutely very emotional and sad :’( , After watching all the seasons fo dexter i always thought he might get arrested or killed, But, this is much worse then both of them. He chose to live & die alone depressed and grieve-stricken after eventually realizing that everybody close to him die after debra’s demise. I always saw dexter smiling and having a goodtime with his family members – debra, rita and harrison but now in the end…. I am feeling extremely sorry for him because everything for him ended with sadness and guilt. I don’t know about you guys but i really enjoyed this finaleand that is how the finale came to a final conclusion in which Dexter eventually lost everything- His sister, son, step children and his girlfriend and now he’s all alone. LONG LIVE DEXTER MORGAN AND R.I.P DEBRA MORGAN :’(
September 7 2013, One of the most frustrating things about india is the driving rules. Undoubtedly Indians are the worst drivers in the world. I am gonna get my driver’s license soon but whenever I am on the road it’s very difficult for me to control all three- kludge, brake and accelerator because drivers don’t even bother to listen to other drivers and just drive into them to commit suicide. These people really need to learn how to drive but I guess they should kill each other in accidents. THAT WOULD BE FUN TO WATCH !
Anyways, I don’t really care about the driving and fucked up roads in india cuz I am gonna leave this country soon after three years to settle down in the united states. Oddly, I am having difficulty in driving small cars like santro because of it’s stupid kludgy problems but I am able to perfectly drive larger cars like bmw z5, Hyundai accent because of their easy and comfortable kludge movements. Unfortunately for me my parents don’t trust me for my driving skills and they won’t allow me to drive to college this year. DAMN IT! Well I guess it’s okay cuz if I keep on practicing like this in these heavy traffics I might be able to become an expert in driving.
I just got a call from my driving instructor that my driving test for permanent driving license is on 10th September. Actually I have no problem doing a driving but I gotta do a driving test in bike as well to obain my license, I dunno how am gonna do that because I have no freaking idea how to drive a bike. But as always I will find a way to do it and get my license cuz I need to drive my car in late nights for personal reasons.
September 10 2013,I finally got my driving license after waiting for like three hours along with my uncle and worst of all, it was a very hot sunny day ! But luckily for me my father gave huge amount of money to the driving instructors so I could easily pass the driving test no matter what. And I did pass it, Hurray!
P.S. today I watched the Austrian movie(in English) ‘3096 TAGE’, based on the true events of the brave and inspiring Natasha Kampusch late at night so I am gonna be posting review on it tomorrow. OK bye.